“The tears stream, down your face when you lose something you cannot replace. And the tears stream down your face now.” -Coldplay
There are times in your life where things are good. And there are times in your life when things just aren’t. And no matter how hard you try, to move past the pain, the loss, the consuming need to move on – sometimes its not possible.
We all need to be “fixed” at times, but sometimes its hard to acknowledge when we feel broken. Because to be broken implies that we are weak, that we cannot handle things the same way as others.
Others who may be hurting inside as well, but are good about wearing that smile on their face. Sometimes these people are even the “fixers.”
The problem with not admitting when you start to feel the walls crumble is that you can’t keep them from falling eventually. Not on your own. And even then, the foundations have shifted and what was there is not anymore. Like a car that crashed and was restored, you just can’t run the same.
In my life I have been scared to talk about when I felt the pain and pressure of years of holding up my own damn walls for so long. As I watched the walls topple down without any loyalty to me and the weight I had borne for so long, I felt numb.
I felt nothing.
Sometimes you can’t wait till you break.
Life is love, life is pain, life is hopes and dreams, defeat and victory. We all can usually rise, but there are just times where we need to let the ones who love us know where we feel our weakest, however scary that might be.
“Lights will guide you home and ignite your bones and I will try to fix you.”